Fruit of My Mistake: Volume 1

This is the first time I'll post a poem here since the blog is starting to rot. Who reads it anyway? It was written two or three weeks ago, I think. One of the fruits of my mistake, I must say. For those who wants to use my poem in some way, ask my permission. Please.

SENTIMENTS FOR THE LAST ILLUSION

Can you be my last illusion?

Will I be your final dream?

Put an end to this delusion

Before it goes beyond it seems

Running in my mind

Leaving many footprints

No wonder I can’t leave you behind

Though I try to give you a hint

One look at your eyes

That gaze I seek to break

Let my feelings run dry

So you, I won’t forsake

Let me numb myself

To this sentiment of yours

I will not need any help

And shall you not exert any force

It’s better this way

No hearts will ache

No tears and pain will stay

In this step I’m about to take

Death Has Claimed Its Glory (For Now)

The ever present Death makes a return in Final Destination 5, the 5^th installment and the 2^nd movie to be shot in 3D in the Final Destination franchise. This time, it stalks the survivors of a bridge collapsing accident and it never rests until it claims the souls of those who were meant to die on the bridge.

On his way to a business retreat together with his co-workers, Sam Lawton (Nicholas D’Agosto, TV's Heroes) had a vision of a bridge collapse. When he snaps out of the premonition, he warns his co-workers about the impending disaster and they all flee to safety, sparing their lives from the accident. A few days later, the survivors started to die one by one and Sam realizes that death is coming for them. He teams up with Molly Harper (Emma Bell, Frozen, TV's The Walking Dead), his girlfriend to try to stop the gruesome deaths before their turns are up.

After The Final Destination sucked the life out of the franchise, Final Destination 5 comes along and surprises the fans and critics. The bridge collapsing sequence features the excellent use of special effects and the movie itself is a genuine showcase of the innovative 3D technology in horror. The opening sequence is also one of the most terrifying, gruesome, and action-packed visions in the whole series besides the Highway 23 pile-up in Final Destination 2. One of the returning elements in this movie is the suspenseful atmosphere. In almost every death scenes, you never know which thing will kill a character. The death sequences give a false lead about how a character dies and right when you don’t expect the moment, the character gets it. So far, the deaths here are the most inventive, suspenseful, and gruesome in the series. There are also a few moments in the movie that you will NEVER see coming. The movie also tries to break the repetition of the series and does it successfully with its new rule.

Another is the character development. Though the development is weak, the characters have managed to be rooted for by the audience and as the audience witness their deaths, they can’t help but feel bad for some of those they know will die at any moment. Tony Todd, who plays the mysterious mortician William Bludworth, makes an anticipated return in the movie and still, he creeps out the characters and the audience with his sinister voice and cryptic advices. Lastly, Brian Tyler's musical score is also filled with the fear that the whole movie is all about. It is even better than his previous work in The Final Destination. 

Final Destination 5 will make you cringe and laugh. The opening premonition and the finale will make your jaw drop and the whole movie will make you literally hold on to your seat with its suspense and amazing use of 3D. It is, by far, the best movie in the series and I hope the 6^th and the 7^th installments will maintain the dread that this one reclaimed.

RATING: 4/5

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Don't Think About Him

NOTE: This post is filled with negativity and angst. Brace yourself.

Let's get things straight. I want to blurt this one out. That bastard. Wasting my money. Frak.

No matter how much effort you give to your justifications, I won't acknowledge it. I listened to your nonsense crap and not being close-minded here but, you don't have a point. Motherfrakker. After listening to your aspirations and "preaching", I still see that what you made us do still hasn't done anything. If only you introduced the process first. If only you introduced the proper way first, then you'll get the outcome you deserved to get.

Unfortunately, you are not exerting enough efforts to shove the lessons you want to teach. We all listened and yet, like what I said before, YOU STILL MADE NO SENSE.

NO FRAKKING SENSE AT ALL.

I already wrote a poem for you but I guess it's not enough to calm the anger that burns within me.

Maybe it's good to just drop you and forget your existence. Your sacrifice is my pleasure.

This River Is Wild

It’s all happening too fast. That’s all I can say. 

I’m still adjusting to my new section. Still. I’m still adjusting to my new home.  I’m still adjusting to something called a new lifestyle which I’m hoping I will rarely enter because it really shocks me about the consequences.

I don’t know if the term lifestyle is appropriate but… my life has drastically changed. It’s like I lost control over my life and I don’t know if it’s a good thing or a bad thing because one of my friends know that I’m a bit of a control freak when it comes to things I do and the budget I spend but today… I noticed and realized that I lost control of my steering wheel and just ride with the current or go with the flow to make it simpler.

But here’s the thing.

Quoting from The Killers' song, this river is wild and it's wild indeed. I feel the current is too strong. I find my new “lifestyle” shocking and fun but mostly shocking. Almost all the things I never thought I’ll do before, I somehow did in this era of my life. If I enumerate these things, you may find some things ridiculous because that’s how “close” my mind is and that’s how “scared” I am to get out of my shell sometimes.

I’d like to wander out of my shell but it won’t be all the time because I’m losing some priorities. I’m losing 90% of control over my life. Again, it’s nice to lose control but I’d like to limit it as I have the tendency to forget some priorities and responsibilities.

There’s one thing I can think of that I want to do now.

That is to somehow straighten my acts and myself.

Messed Up

Prelims week is almost near and I am almost panicking but I'm still calm. Did that made sense? Gah. I must concentrate on my studies.

I must. I must. I must!!

There are a lot of things to be done even during the preliminary term here. It's all exciting but it's also grueling despite the fact that I now live near the university. I'm not having troubles with the apartment and all.

It's just that I'm still adjusting myself especially my study habits in the apartment. It's not a crappy excuse and all but I'm still getting used to the environment to help me concentrate in studying and doing homework. There's also the limitation of not having any connections to the Internet except for the broadband that I borrow from a classmates who lives in the same apartment as mine. The only time I can connect is when I'm at the university and of course, I can't stay at the university for so long.

I'm messed up, am I?

Dorm Life and Other Shenanigans: Volume 2

I now live on an apartment near the university I'm studying. I've been living there for actually two weeks now. I usually come home in the weekends for the laundry and stacking up my resources. I actually never thought this would materialize. It all happened so fast but I managed. Being away from home is hard, I admit, but when I rationalize my decision, the pluses actually outweighs the minuses.

I may be away from home and for the first time, I'm living on my own. I think about what to eat and what to do for the whole day. I'm not new with planning my activities for the day though the food planning is a little difficult because I'm conscious with what I eat.

I'm adjusting to my body clock too. Now that I live near the university, I don't have to wake up in the wee hours of the morning but my body is just used to waking up. I always get up at around 6:00 AM and I'm usually the first one in the apartment awake. After waking up, I always seat on the couch outside the rooms and wait for something or someone to happen. Despite waking up too early, I rarely arrived late in my classes unlike last semester.

There are little distractions in my studies but I can do little with my assignments since I haven't brought my laptop in the apartment yet. There's no wireless Internet connection there but I'm not complaining since I needed some time off the net during weekdays.

Roommates are not pests, honestly but I'm having troubles of fitting in since we have differences and I mean big ones like tastes in music and lifestyle. (Please do not spill this one or I will end those who are responsible for the leakage.)

About sleeping, I'm always the first one to go to bed among all the boarders but when finally sleeping, I fail to keep myself in a deep sleep.

So far, I'm still adjusting to this new lifestyle but I'm looking forward to learn some lessons along the way. I don't want to get tired with traveling too much though I miss riding the train and jeepney home with the music of my taste on my earbuds. I also miss walking with my friends on the way home, joking and talking about movies.

Speaking of which, I got separated from my friends this semester.I'm also on my own in the classroom. I joined a new section where I don't know most of the people. I'm only familiar with them through the organization I joined and some of the students there became my classmates during my freshman year. It's a new environment to me. Totally different personalities from the section I came from but it's good to meet new people. Like the dorm life, I never expected this part to happen too but unlike the dorm life, I did not plan this well.

I can't compare them to my original section because these two groups have differences but all I can say so far is that I enjoy both sections though I can't help but miss my friends back in the group I came from.

Hikari

Back in my high school shenanigans, there's this girl that I met on Friendster. Yeah. I used Friendster back when Facebook was still a baby. I was still addicted with Naruto, an anime series for those who didn't know, and since I'm in puberty, I searched for character accounts of Sakura Haruno, my favorite Naruto character, on Friendster. I clicked this particular account because of the profile picture which I think is cute. I browsed at the profile and saw the e-mail address and I decided to add it up in my Yahoo! Messenger contacts. Fortunately, she accepted it. When she was logged in, I sent her a message and unexpectedly, she replied and actually, I never expect to have fun conversations with her because I'm not used with meeting people online.

Days and a few months passed and we chatted some more until she stopped logging in. I think it all stopped by the end of my sophomore year. I actually don't know what happened to her and why she never came back online.

The reason why she resurfaced on my mind is because of this song.

This song appeared on her blog which she gave me the link in one of our chatting sessions. I heard it from the video game, Kingdom Hearts. Obviously.

Now, the reason why I blurted this all out is because I want to try to look for her. I want to reconnect with her and I want to be friends with her again and possibly, be more than friends.

I liked her. Better than my "first experience" with love.