Do Something

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When disaster strikes, we all suffer. But why does it feel so inevitable to blame someone or some group or something for what happened? Is it so hard to put down your pointing fingers and start to incorporate ourselves in this mess that we are also responsible for?

I keep hearing the same statements when calamities happen like "blame the government", "blame the president", and this particular statement is the newest and I consider the most absurd, "blame the RH Bill supporters! It's their fault God is mad at us and unleashed His wrath on us."

Before you assume that I'm something I'm not, let me first clarify  this: I believe in God but I don't believe in most of the people because they are too ignorant and close-minded. I mean, come on. Blame those who support a bill? That is a bunch of crap. The last thing I need is people demanding a virgin to be sacrificed to God to stop the disasters from striking and that takes us back to being ancient which is actually inappropriate for the time being.

Going back, everyone has a share of his or her responsibility in this mess. Let it be the government, let it be Catholics, let it be simple people. What happened is our fault. It's our responsibility. Even I have my share in this mess just like everyone else. And guess what have we failed to do that led us to this predicament? What is it, you may ask? Well, my dear readers, followers, and friends, we have failed to do something.

By the way, for my international readers (if there are), I'm talking about what recently happened to my place this past three days. You may have a clue where it is because of the RH Bill but if you still don't have a clue, it's the country that just got flooded because of the torrential rain that has poured down on its soil.

About my previous point, yeah, we all failed to do something that must have been done to lessen the devastation in our place. It's our nation and what happened is a reflection on how we handled and took care of our place. This is the consequence we get from doing nothing, smiling, and saying that we'll get through this. Okay. Time for a reality check. Simply smiling and saying that we'll get through this is not enough to get past this predicament or other predicaments we are currently facing and we will encounter in the future.

We have to do something, people! If you think that doing something might give you an instant effect in the surroundings, it's not. Things don't work that way. We must start small and patient because once we do something, we will notice the effects or the fruits of our labor slowly but surely. Everything in this world takes time especially if it concerns reconstruction, improvement, and development. No one can rebuild a burnt down house within a fraction of a second or even a day. You have to be supernaturally powerful to do it but since this is not fiction, no one has that kind of power.

Anyway, the road to a better life has always been a little rough but we must learn how to be patient and take baby steps in this road because sometimes, once we take a huge step, we will never know what we will lose. So it's better to help our country slowly but surely especially with the help from a lot of pairs of hands.

Instead of just whining and blaming and rallying, why don't we all just do something better than those? Instead of worsening the problem and contributing to the chaos that our country is already known for, why don't we become a small part of a big paradise that will be unlock by a chain reaction of solutions and reactions?

So before I end this post, let me leave you all with a message that goes something like this:

DO SOMETHING. 

An Outburst

Forgive me for this intimate and somewhat messy post but I am in the mood for letting this out because I don't know what will happen to me if I just keep it inside.

I'm a person who's always in touch with my feelings, a person who wears his emotions on his sleeve. I still believe I am but I don't want to get my emotions in the way of my logic. Not anymore. It's not really helping me at all. My emotions make me go back to my past which I really don't want to linger on forever and every time I go back to the past, it's like I'm going down to a deep tunnel and I cave myself inside it. The past also made me go to my most vulnerable state and of course, I never liked it. There are times I wallow suddenly when I'm in that tunnel and I find that a little irrational now because all the events behind my tears look so irrational and stupid... and I hate being stupid! I feel like I want to claim my tears back.

I cry suddenly because I think it'll help me to slowly let go because once I let these tears out, I might be fine at the end of the day but I believe it's just a temporary remedy. I want a permanent cure.

The reason why I am here right now, writing this post, is to let go. Well, I don't expect to believe that after posting this, I think I have let go all of my burdens but if it helps, why not take a shot? Anyway, I don't want to get stuck in this shithole forever. I'm getting messier and messier as the days go by. I don't want to wallow and think of my past in the coming days. I want to move forward and live my life without any worries, hesitations, and fear. Shit. I want to erase all the things that kept my head bound in this phase. I want to let it all go. But I don't know where or how to start.

Maybe talking to a therapist might help or talking to a friend might do it to. I've also thought of dealing with this myself but I always hesitated for I fear the truth. But from the looks of things, dealing and confronting the problems look like a big help now. But first, I need to gather myself and my thoughts before I push this plan.

One Quiet Night

I wrote this one last month. It's an extremely different poem of mine because I wrote it from a different perspective which is from a father's. Of course, I've never been a father yet since I'm young to be one. Once again, if you want to ask for my poems, contact me. Thanks.

ONE QUIET NIGHT

Stars sparkle across the sky

Amidst the vast darkness

Like these glitters in your eyes

Stuck in such a cute mess

It looks like a quiet night

The wind hums you a song

Even without the sunlight

It seems like nothing’s wrong

Lying there in your small bed

Your timid eyes are closed

With these dreams in your young head

You’re happy, I suppose

When the morning comes, I’ll see

Your priceless, earnest face

Your smile means the world to me

Joy binds me in some ways

The world today is spiteful

You’ll understand someday

But you can still be blissful

Just seize your time today

Your little mind can’t perceive

Vexations around us

I’ll take the hurt you’ll receive

To see your beam, I must

Now sleep in your tiny room

Play in your huge dreamland

I’ll shield you from all the gloom

You’ll be safe in my hands

Prepare To Be Amazed

Who never thought a reboot can be this amazing?

The Amazing Spider-Man is a reboot of the Spider-Man films that were directed by Sam Raimi (The Evil Dead, Drag Me to Hell). The latest film is directed by Marc Webb ((500) Days of Summer) and stars Andrew Garfield (The Social Network) and Emma Stone (Easy A, Zombieland). The film goes back to Peter Parker's (Garfield) high school where he acquires his power and adjusts to it while dealing with high school, his past, his crush Gwen Stacy (Stone), and the Lizard (Rhys Ifans).

First of all, I'd like to say that I love this reboot than the previous films. I also loved and enjoyed the previous three but this one really nails it. Director Marc Webb managed to balance comedy, drama, and action here and the drama here is not melodramatic but it's actually human drama. I'd also like to give credit to Webb for his first 3D action film. This is his second film right after his directorial debut in (500) Days of Summer starring Joseph Gordon-Levitt and Zooey Deschanel. Webb has no troubles shifting from romantic comedy-drama to superhero action and he did so well with the action sequences especially in the third act.

What makes The Amazing Spider-Man different from Raimi's Spider-man films is the realism. Like I said, there's human drama inside and the other is before Spidey can shoot web directly from his wrists, Peter created a device for shooting webs which is also closer to Spidey's comic incarnation. There's also the realism in Peter Parker's character. He's an outcast. He's also nice but there's this certain darkness in him that makes him a bit more realistic like when he finally gets his powers and adjusts to them pretty well, he used them to get even with a school bully. I mean, who wouldn't want to get even when you have powers like that, right?

This particular adaptation is getting closer to its comic source because in this film, Spidey is a smart-ass crime fighter unlike in Raimi's films.

On with the actors, I love Garfield's portrayal of the superhero with his comic timing and he makes a likeable incarnation of one of Marvel Comics' most beloved superheroes. He also gives Peter Parker a certain edge for being a little darker that Tobey Maguire's incarnation. Sorry Tobey. You did good but Andrew's awesome. Emma Stone's Gwen Stacy, on the other hand, is contrasting to Garfield's Peter Parker because of her bubbly personality and expressive eyes. Stone makes a memorable portrayal of Spidey's first and original girlfriend and every time she's on screen, she radiates. I also love Gwen Stacy here because she's a good combination of wit and spunk. She's not the typical damsel-in-distress here. She's smart, she's tough, and she can take care of herself.

One flaw of the film is the character development between Peter Parker and Gwen Stacy which I find a little rushed but I just did not mind because of Andrew Garfield and Emma Stone's on-screen chemistry.

In the end, Spider-Man fans will raise their fists in the air and think that Spidey has reclaimed his glory and won the people's hearts with this reboot. It's a nice and fresh restart of the franchise and I hope the future sequels will maintain or outmatch this film's level of energy, action, comedy, and drama.

RATING: 4.5/5

TRAILER:

Not Another Brain Storm

Summer is almost ending and when it's over, it will be my last summer because if I finally get a job, there will be no two months of slacking off and lazing around. And once this summer is done, it's not the school I'll be looking forward to, it's the workplace and the school and workplace are two extremely different environments that no matter how many analogies you try to make, you still can't find a perfect one to make them similar to each other.

As the month of May goes halfway, I slowly realize that I am still not prepared for what's coming for me in the future days. I'm not talking about my skills. I'm talking about myself. I know I talked about this in the previous post and maybe you're starting to see that I'm redundant but sometimes, one post or in terms of real communication, one conversation is not enough to settle complicated things and you got it right, what I am dealing right now is extremely complicated that it can be life-changing.

I still have some unfinished business in my college life that I need to work on before summer ends for closure that might end up either good or bad. The uncertainty is killing me and my low level of guts is wearing my brain down from too much thinking. I am seriously jaded of hesitating and of going back and forth.

I'm not sure if I can still handle this alone but I'm trying really hard to deal with this by myself. I also can't talk to anyone yet about this because I still have to understand a lot about this one. Maybe a journey of self-discovery is the cure for me because before I can finally make a move on this, I need to understand the nature of this problem which is me.

Anxiety, Transitions, and Closure

I have a job interview tomorrow and it's my first. I'm actually a "little" nervous. I would like to use the word "little" because it might help reduce the nervousness I'm trying to suppress or hide. I know I can handle this but I can't help but feel anxious about it. There. I forgot adding the word.

I'm also anxious about finally leaving the thoughts of a student and embracing the stage of being a young professional. I'll miss talking to my college friends, to be honest. I've never felt so comfortable with them. I will not linger to this point since I have already said these before. I'm a little worried about the people I will meet at work. Will I enjoy working with them? Will I have the chance to make things like college again? I really love hanging out with my college mates because I can laugh out loud and be serious at the same time. I just hope the people I will meet at work will almost be the same or might be better but there's a slim chance they will be better.

I cannot believe I am actually nervous during the summer. I am supposed to be and usually nervous during school days but this is just a different feeling. It's all because of the job-hunting. I know what I tweeted about rejection. (Yeah... I have a Twitter account.) I know that I should suck it up since everyone experiences the feeling of rejection but being rejected hurts a little... Okay, I lied! It hurts. But I must not wallow for so long about rejection because it will not help me and there will be better chances and options for me ahead since I'll be going to some companies with my college friends and look for available jobs.

Now that summer is about to close by the month of June, I want to do a lot of things and enjoy myself before going to work. By the way, for those who didn't know, my place's summer starts from late March or early April to the end of May or early June. Going back, there are a lot of things I want to do and settle before June comes.

Here are some of the to-do things before summer ends:

1. Go to a beach with college friends. 
2. Go to a beach with family and relatives.
3. Finish the script I've been working on for almost a month.
4. Make two films with my college friends: One for the school and one for a film festival.
5. Closure. I want to move on just like everyone else.

I'd really go to a beach with my college friends and with my family and relatives but on different times because it will be a first for me to go to a beach or to go out of the city with my college friends and I would love to hang out with them before going separate ways for the time being. I also want to go with my family and relatives because it's been a while since I had fun with them and maybe, this summer is a good time for me to enjoy with them too. 

I want to finish the script I've been working on. I'm still writing its sequence treatment and I'm stuck. I haven't touched it for a while. I have a lot of unfinished scripts but I really hope to finish this particular script because I love the concept. 

I have to admit, I enjoy making films with my college friends so I really want to shoot with them. I can learn a lot of things from them since they know more about film making than I do and it's really nice to bond with them.

And finally, there's the closure. This closure has two contexts to me. It can be: one, closure of college and moving on to young adulthood, and lastly, a feeling that must be said to a certain someone so I can finally move on. I won't pry on that one because I would rather talk about it personally to someone I can really trust and someone who will not judge me in advance.

So there you have it. These are the things stuck in my mind this summer. If I haven't written for a long time, just assume that I am okay and doing good. If you think otherwise, well, at least, it will be okay. (For the readers, you have an idea where I somehow got this statement or at least, the sense of it. By the way, thanks Charlie for reminding me that I am not the only one. ) 

Fruit of My Mistake: Volume 3

This might be the ultimate farewell poem I've ever written. For those who want to borrow my poems or something like that, ask my permission first.

MY MIND’S CURE

Time and fate have kept us apart

I fear our paths will never meet

My mind, defeated by my heart

To bear this feeling in discreet

I told myself not to go back

To the moment I can’t forget

I see that strength is what I lack

And now I look back in regret

There's no more chance to let this out

So I will say this slow but sure

You might know what this is about

I will say this for my mind’s cure

I like you ever since that day

You have been my strong temptation

I hope this is enough to say

You too were my inspiration

Farewells are inevitable

And yet I still hope to see you

Our past has been regrettable

Closure is all I want to do

I don’t want to feel anymore

This like or love or whatever

It’s time to close the open door

I don’t want to let you linger

I’ll move on and leave my feelings

Keep it between you and me

Let this end be a beginning

That is another way to see

There will be no tears to be shed

Let’s not try to find each other

There is nothing left to be said

For this chapter is now over