Last Day High

Today was my last day of the semester. It ended great. There's no classes actually but I came to school to pass the script for RTV and like I said in my status on Facebook, I kicked some ass. I like it when people complement my works especially poems and writings but it's my first time writing a script and my professor enjoyed reading my work. It actually became my inspiration and motivation to finish what I started and to stand up because my group mates barely helped me at all. (Dairen, I now know how you feel when I began to act all lazy. I'm so sorry about those times.)

After passing the script, I spent some time with Film Society and it was fun. We're actually pushing the plan of playing some "war game" with pellet guns. They liked the idea. I'm excited with it too. We went somewhere to look for some guns but our efforts were futile.

Then, I'm about to make some progress with the OJT or on-the-job training. I'll finish my resume tonight. I hope I can come to the OJT hunt and the film lecture in UP tomorrow. I'll try to be active this summer. :)

Before I go, here's a song to accompany me in my triumphs today. I must say I turned the tables and now, they're under my thumb. I kicked their asses.

(Courtesy of Decca Records and YouTube)

New Haircut

I got a haircut last Friday evening and right now, I miss my long hair even if it bothers a lot of people. I don't actually care if they think I look disturbing or uncivilized or whatever with my long hair. I never thought getting my haircut is a "life changing" experience to my friends.

Last Saturday, my classmates were surprised with what I did to my hair. Yeah. They never saw that coming. My Cinema professor saw me and she said that I looked like a high school student and I kind of laughed about it because I look like a dweeb back in high school. You want pictures? Beg harder.

This afternoon, I attended the meeting for the organization I joined last year and most of the members there are shocked that I got my haircut. My former classmate who's also a member there cannot stop laughing literally and his laugh is so contagious, I just laughed at myself for my hair.

He swore a lot like "What the f***?", "T******!", "S***!" and I can't stop laughing as he swore those words right in my face. Yeah. That's how he shows his love. I kid. He rocks. Our upperclassmen and underclassmen members were also shocked with my hair as if their lives are extremely affected with my haircut.

Man. This is the last time I'm getting an extremely short haircut.

A Hard Day's Night

It's been a hard day's night. I'm exhausted, worn out, tired, restless... pick one. It's all the same. I went to school at around 07:00 AM and I got home at around 10:20 PM all because of a technical and dress rehearsal for our Production subject. It's been fun I admit but I can never forget that one scene I just went through twice. Twice because I have to take the spot of my classmate since he got sick. I'm not blaming him because first, it's a health matter and second, it's sort of a way to pay him back.

This particular scene is what I can't afford to narrate here but here's what I can only say. I'm stripped off spiritually. :)) I really can't believe that I actually did it. Until now, my mind is still processing what the f*** I just did. I wish I can sleep it all away instead.

Also, hearing a song featured in that scene now made me tremble because I can vividly remember the whole scene. Everyone's laughing and I don't want to hear what others are saying. It's the first time I did such a thing and I'm uncomfortable with it. Who does? I'm sure those people who are inclined in that field are willing to do what I just did a few hours ago.

I now need to recollect myself and reflect on all the things that happened this day and I still have to finish writing the sequence treatment for my RTV subject. We still have a long way to go. Yay me. You know, if I could just change one of my groupmates to another group member, then so be it. I will not hesitate. It's his loss. He did not contribue something. I already told him the things he needed to do and I waited but it seems that I waited for nothing from that son of a gun. Gah.

I also want to return some of my habits before. I'm sort of missing my old life and I want to go back somehow. I think I mentioned this in one of my posts before. In case if no one remembered, I want to return to being more serious in my studies and I have a lot of focus on reading and understanding. I really feel like I was smart and intellectual back then. Right now, I think like I just turned into a slacker and I'm uncomfortable with it.

Here's a little something to make me pass through the night.

(Courtesy of YouTube and EMI Records)

Love

It will almost be a month since Valentine's Day has passed and love still lurks around me. I've been seeing a lot of people falling in love. Some are trying to get their feelings noticed and some are trying to hide it. Whatever. Their feeling is still love. But me? What about me and love? Haha. Nothing. I'm just a spectator and I watch how things unfold.

But I'm also human because I have this recurring thought in my mind. It's a stupid one so why mention it. Anyway, when we celebrated my sister's birthday back then, my younger brother brought his girlfriend along to celebrate with us. My aunt is also there and she saw them all happy and looking all couple-ish. Then she looked at me and said, "They look so happy." I nodded. She asked me, "why don't you get a girlfriend?" It was like a slap in my face. I admit it opened my eyes somehow. But what the hell. I have a lot of things to think about and besides, who would've want to be my girlfriend? Enough with my dead love life.

Okay. I'm also admitting that I somehow want to have an experience of a relationship with someone I really like and understand. I want to know what it feels like holding a girl's hand while walking and being all mushy and laughing at some lame jokes and such. Yes. I'm getting cheesy but I really want to try or maybe, finally enter the world of couples. If and only if I found this one girl. 

Ash Wednesday Already?!

Time sure does fly. I barely even noticed that it's already Ash Wednesday (and as you can see, I'm a Catholic.) Two major projects have recently concluded yesterday but I never felt the feeling of achievement that I sought. I think I should see a shrink to have a brain check and a reality check. Does anyone here know some? I could really use some help. 

Last Monday night until yesterday morning, I pulled off an all nighter because I crammed. I'm not proud of cramming but I can't believe that I survived an all nighter by myself. I usually do this with closest friends and mates from college but with myself, well, it's a new experience. Since I'm expecting more of this stuff, I hope the next all nighter will be a little more "enlightening". Care to enlighten me with your flashlight? 

BTW, if you noticed my post are illogically arranged, kindly notify me. Comments and reactions are welcome. Thank you. :)

Time

Time. It can be our ally. It can be our opponent. But one thing is constant in time. It does not wait for anyone.

This is what I learned this past few days and yet, I still haven't applied the lesson. I'm such a dumb ass. My lifestyle is still disorganized. My brain is burning out. I'm wasting my time doing distractions and procrastinating. What the hell have I done? Life is supposed to be simple and time is supposed to go along with it but it looks like I misuse and abuse the time I have and it made my life messy and complicated. I'm already complicated myself.

I have a lot of things to accomplish within the weekend. Lots of articles to write and the deadline is on Tuesday. I'll make sure we can finish all these this weekend.

If this weekend will be successful, I'd like to play this as I go home this Sunday. It's Time by Hans Zimmer from the Inception soundtrack. I love this track because it made me feel that I have achieved something.

(Video from YouTube.)

Constructing Act II

This is the only Wednesday that I got some rest. Lucky that I managed to make some time for myself to do some school works like writing a sequence treatment for Act II of my concept in RTV. Unlucky that I got myself a group that seems unreliable when it comes to tasks. Actually, one is okay. She gives ideas but she can be lazy though. The other... Meh. I can't say one word about it. I know that they also have other problems in other subjects but they must not forget that I, too, have problems of my own and this is one of them.

Do I have the right to be mad?
Yes.

Can I make the necessary actions to give sanctions?
I'm still thinking about it but I am willing to drop them.

I'm really pissed off from the start that I got them as my co-writers. I wish I can exchange them for someone that is actually into the genre of my concept. I have a feeling that we'll get lost and lose the original direction that I'm planning to take my concept on.

If they ever got the chance to read this and hate me for it, I'll live.

The Big Kaboom

It's raining. I lack some sleep. Luckily, I won't go to school tomorrow. It's my day off. Well, technically my day off but I still have some school works to accomplish. I drown myself with the pressure and I hate it. Of course I hate it. Like what I said in my first ever post, I hate the fact that I get carried away by the atmosphere. I really frakking hate it. I somehow miss my old self where I can still concentrate on my studies. I miss the times that I can still wake up early without hesitating to get up although I'm not enthusiastic. I miss the times of having some intellectual conversations with people once in a while. I want to stop whining about school work. I want to punch myself in the face and wake myself up from this deep sleep that slowly pulls me into a nightmare I can't escape.

I'm currently a train wreck and it's a catastrophe to see myself messy, forgetful, lazy, and disorganized. Show me my bad ways and I hope that it will make me alter my lifestyle. Bah. I'm so full of sh*t.

Sorry for the negativity in this post. It's just one of my ways. If I don't get to do this, I might get the big kaboom which is like this...

Of course I don't want to end up like him.

(Video courtesy of YouTube and Screen Gems.)